Ok so most of you know I'm a positive upbeat person.But todays post is anything but.I haven't been blogging much as I've been busy with summer in general and trying to process some bad news.My father recently found out he has cancer we had to wait till today to have the full extent and the news is radiation treatments to try to shrink it then cutting it out.This is the same cancer my grandfather died of a year and a half ago.I am my fathers only child as my mom remarried when I was around 5.He is single and I am the main person in his life so it all falls on me for support and getting through this....
I'm not very good with dealing with loss or showing sadness/grief.I keep unpleasant things to myself normally.But this has got my mind a little off center trying to process all the emotions and get it worked through.I'm trying to go about my normal daily life but I just feel a little like a zombie..Numb..Not knowing..I truely just can't work it all out...I've always been a person to just get it done or fix it and this I can not fix..I'm used to getting over bad emotions and moving forward but this is going to be a long process that I do not know the end result so it's even more frustrating...I'm hopefull it will be for the best,but in my mind I'm thinking should I be prepaired for the worst..I keep telling myself be strong but the uncertain outcome bugs me non stop.Sorry for rambling on but hopefully maybe by sharing it will help release it as well.Extra prayers could help too.......So if I'm not visiting or posting as much you know it's not you..I adore you..smile...The pics I took this morning around the gardens.I need to get out and work on them some they've been neglected...Lavender needs harvested and dried...Herbs need planted..Weeds pulled....
We got the pool up yesterday..We just have the 16 foot by 4 foot quick set type but let me tell you it's wonderful with the 90+ degrees days...Veggie gardens are in and producing some allready...Love having the plot to tend out grandma's as well. While hubby waters I get early morning chats in with grandma....Junking is in full swing and fleamarket is doing well...Just general summer stuff...
Trying as always to get caught up but trying to ease into Lazy summer days...For now just trying to..Relax...Again thanks for hearing me out today.You girls are the best!~Amy
Ok so most of you know I'm a positive upbeat person.But todays post is anything but.I haven't been blogging much as I've been busy with summer in general and trying to process some bad news.My father recently found out he has cancer we had to wait till today to have the full extent and the news is radiation treatments to try to shrink it then cutting it out.This is the same cancer my grandfather died of a year and a half ago.I am my fathers only child as my mom remarried when I was around 5.He is single and I am the main person in his life so it all falls on me for support and getting through this....
I'm not very good with dealing with loss or showing sadness/grief.I keep unpleasant things to myself normally.But this has got my mind a little off center trying to process all the emotions and get it worked through.I'm trying to go about my normal daily life but I just feel a little like a zombie..Numb..Not knowing..I truely just can't work it all out...I've always been a person to just get it done or fix it and this I can not fix..I'm used to getting over bad emotions and moving forward but this is going to be a long process that I do not know the end result so it's even more frustrating...I'm hopefull it will be for the best,but in my mind I'm thinking should I be prepaired for the worst..I keep telling myself be strong but the uncertain outcome bugs me non stop.Sorry for rambling on but hopefully maybe by sharing it will help release it as well.Extra prayers could help too.......So if I'm not visiting or posting as much you know it's not you..I adore you..smile...The pics I took this morning around the gardens.I need to get out and work on them some they've been neglected...Lavender needs harvested and dried...Herbs need planted..Weeds pulled....
We got the pool up yesterday..We just have the 16 foot by 4 foot quick set type but let me tell you it's wonderful with the 90+ degrees days...Veggie gardens are in and producing some allready...Love having the plot to tend out grandma's as well. While hubby waters I get early morning chats in with grandma....Junking is in full swing and fleamarket is doing well...Just general summer stuff...
Trying as always to get caught up but trying to ease into Lazy summer days...For now just trying to..Relax...Again thanks for hearing me out today.You girls are the best!~Amy
33 comments:
I am so sorry about your news. It is hard to process I will keep you in my prayers. about 3 weeks ago we found out my husband has cancer so I know what you are going through not easy.
prayers
Cathy
Amy-I'm so sorry to read about your dad - It must be so hard. :-( I will definitely keep you and him in my prayers. *HUGS*
Hi Amy - Sounds like you've embarked on a rough journey. You are right - take it a day at a time and when you can't do that, take it hour by hour if you have to. Don't hesitate to vent and ask for prayers. I will pray for you & your dad - he is blessed to have you! Take care of yourself too! ~*~Lisa
Amy dear, I am so sorry for this news about your Dad. Know that I will be praying hard for him and you, for the strength to deal with this situation and also for the best possible outcome for him....
We are your long distance friends so please feel you can "lean on us" if need be, I know I'll be here for ya!
Big Hugs,
Traci
Amy, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I went thru that with my mom and dad less than 2 years ago, my mom died and then dad got sick and spent most of his last 6 months in and out of the hospital. It is hard, but you will get thru it. Your dad is very lucky to have you , you definitely have our prayers and good thoughts going your way.
Im so sorry to hear this news sweetie!I will keep you and your family in my prayers and put you all on the prayer list at church as well.Cancer is a horrible ,I lost my mom to it years ago as well but I also know ALOT of surviors!Hang in there sweet friend.Big hugs and many prayers michelle
I am very sorry about your news. I will keep you both in my prayers.
Amy, My heart goes out to you~so sorry for the news~ I am sending my thoughts & prayers~for you and your Father~
Hugs to you Sweetie~ I pray for a miracle~
Teresa
Amy~ If you need anything, please don't hesitate to call. You know I've been there with my mom. All you can do is take it a day at a time. I will continue to pray for your Dad and ask God to give you the strength and guidence needed for this journey.
Blessings,
Jean
So sorry to hear your bad news, and will pray for strength for you and healing for your dad.
God Bless......
Amy I'm so sorry to hear about your father....hopefully the radiation treatment will do it's job. I know a bunch of cancer survivors so try to keep your thoughts positive and have hope. I will be sending you and your father positive thoughts.
Big hugs!!!!
Oh Amy, I'm so very sorry hon!! My prayers and thoughts go out to you and to your dad!
HUGS!!
Brenda
Amy,
So sorry to hear about your dad and his illness. Try to keep a positive outlook as that's what he will need to fight this beast and win! I know it's hard as he will become more dependent on you for support, but you can do it and will do it...you have it in you. Some days will be better than others and this only serves to prove that we should live like there's no tomorrow and live our lives to the fullest. I'll be sending good thoughts and prayers for healing for your dad and strength for you to help him through this. Take care and do remember to try to smile. Take time when you are in the garden to appreciate all of God's beauty. Have a great day.
D
Amy~
So sorry about your dad. I will keep him & your family in my prayers.
Hugs~Becky
Amy I am sorry to hear of this news about your father. Try as we might to stay postive and put some things aside, there are some such as this that you need to share. Your friends are here for you to listen and to pray for you and your family during this difficult time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Warm hugz,
Sheila
Oh Sweet Amy - what distressing news. I am so very sorry. Not only for your father's health - but also for the tumble of emotion it must be placing you in. Not only do you need to "process" and cope with the illness, but given your status as his sole support system, there are also those added responsibilities and issues. Of course you are numb and disoriented. I wish you strength, and support, and faith. I also wish the best of medical care and miracles for your father. My very best thoughts are with you both, and most sincere prayers being sent upward....Great big hugs girl~ Robin
Amy, I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I will keep him and you in my prayers. Your flowers are stunning.
pam
Amy, Sweetie, I have not lost a parent but 2 SILs and a BIL in the last couple years. My brother had the radiation and surgery. He is doing much better though his life has changed a lot. You have your husband to lean on and he will provide that comfort you will be needing. It is not an easy task you are faced with, regardless of the outcome. But you have those awesome big strong shoulders and you can handle this. Never be reluctant to ask for comfort or advice or just to be heard. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your Dad and your whole family.
Call me if you need a shoulder to lean on. 319-986-6486 I don't know everything, but I do listen well...... ★Linda★
Amy, My heart goes out to you during this time, I know that numb feeling you are feeling, my father had cancer in 2006. It was a hard time, I had both my parents leaning on me taking dad to radiation treatments, and holding mom up at the same time. Best advice take care of yourself, sometime I would have to step back, regroup and then go back and start again. I had to learn to deal with my stress levels, very high, I would literally go and get lost somewhere, usually in a large antique mall, somewhere I could just get lost in my thoughts, it worked everytime, I still do that today when my stress gets to high, stop, regroup and start again. Don't hesitate to talk, I am here to listen. Take care of yourself, HUGS. Vicky
Oh Amy. I am so sorry to hear this. You and your father will be in my thoughts and prayers. Hope everything works out for both of you.
Hugs,
Patti xoxoxoxo
Amy,
My positive thoughts and prayers are with you.
Remember to take care of you!
Hugs,
Tam
~ Amy, I'm sending this message with a soft hug, in hopes that it will let you know, that you are not alone. So sorry to read about your dear fathers cancer. I know that it is VERY hard to deal with all the emotions that you and I'm sure your father are going through. Know that you are not alone, EVER!!! I pray that you spend your precious time not in worry, but in love. I know it's A LOT harder than it sounds. Change your mind set everytime a sad thing pops in your sweet head. Take some timeouts for just you, doing simple pleasures that you love. ~Rest~ get your favorite meal, snuggle down in your favorite chair and watch your favorite movie. I hope this helps. Thank you for sharing your beautiful flowers! All My Best ~Kimberly
I can understand completely. My dad had cancer and my mom was his caregiver but I was hers!! Come here and post! We'll make you laugh and hug you and get you through. It is the support of people that get you through. This is not something to do alone. Ask for help! You will be welcomed with open arms.
Prayers for you and your dad.
I'm sending best wishes for a positive outcome. Take one day at a time.
Amy I am so sorry to hear the news of your father's illness !It is always hard to see a parent ill.I can only suggest that you not allow yourself to be put on the back burner .You must take care of yourself in order to be there for your dad. I will be keeping you and your dad in my prayers.Big hugs,Jen
Oh Amy, I'm so, so sorry to hear of your father's illness. It saddens my heart to think of you struggling with such an overwhelming situation. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Hi Amy,
I am sorry that your Dad has cancer! I pray that the treatments will help him and I am sorry that you have the added stress of being the sole support system, that can be stressful.
I think it's important for you to talk about things, and don't keep it bottled inside. That isn't healthy. So, don't concern yourself about having nothing interesting~or thinking that in your mind. We are all here for you and also don't forget your heavenly father~he is the best support of all!
Sending you a big hug sweetie!
Hugs,
Renee
Amy,
So sorry to hear about your Dad. Sending prayers for him and for you too! Like the others have said... we are here for you to lean on!
*hugs*
Debbie K
Amy,
I am sending you many many hugs! I so understand oh to well what you are going through. I lost my mom to cancer back in November she was only 66. You hope for the best, yet, there is no promises. It is a emtional roller coast. HUGS!!! OLM
Sorry to hear about what you and your Dad are going through; my daughter fell dangerously ill about a month and a half ago, and has recovered, but at the time, all i could do was put it in God's hands and live one day at a time. Try to stay in the present, and not in the future or the past. It isn't easy, but it helped a lot.
HUGS
Pamela
Amy,
I was sorry to hear about your Dad. My thoughts and prayers are with you. It's hard to be the caregiver/supporter. You have to remember to take of yourself as well. Take time to get away for a few hours - go to your favorite fabric shop, go junkin,go to the mall - just to get your mind off everything. Take care,
Hugs, Ellie
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry I just heard about your dad. I should have checked in on your blog while I was away. My heart really goes out to you and I am praying hard for you and your dear dad. Try to keep your thoughts positive and enjoy every moment that you do have with him. The one good thing you can look at is that you really can make a concerted effort to enjoy your time together...my dad died when I was 25 of a massive heart attack and I would have given anything to have truly known that perhaps his days were close to an end...Say all the things now so you wont have any regrets like me. Oh, honey, you really are such a dear person and I wish this wasnt happening to you. If you need anything, please let me know. I know you've got the swap going on and if you need anything with that just ask. You are one of the kindest gals I know and consider yourself hugged from me, ok ?
Grace to you,
Margie
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